Following

I’m graduating in 2.5 weeks. Undergrad is over. I want to go to graduate school, but I have neither the money nor the GPA to go at this very moment. Besides, my professors have told me that many graduate schools prefer work experience.

That’s all beside the point. This is probably the biggest life change that I have experienced, thus far. I won’t be going back to school in August. I won’t be school-supply shopping, which I absolutely love doing. Haha. I’m a nerd who didn’t try hard enough.

I don’t know where I’m going with this post, anymore. Just like I don’t where I’m going with my life!

Today, my parents dropped everything and are heading to NY. My aunt’s cancer shockingly spread quickly, after everything seemed to be getting better. She’s in the hospital and the doctors say she won’t make it. My dad is a worry-wart, right now, and I don’t blame him. I wasn’t super close to her as I’ve only met her a total of 5 or 6 times, but she has always been sweet and kind to me. I hope that whatever God’s will is, happens, and that my dad, who isn’t a man of any faith, can understand that sooner than later. He struggled a lot when his mom died when I was 6 or 7 years old.

So, this wasn’t my intention of this post. I actually do not remember what I wanted to write, but I know I had some very strong feelings of ambivalence earlier, during my work study job.

I do have a pressing issue, right now. People say that I shouldn’t sell myself short. In fact, last night I was complaining to my boyfriend how I didn’t try as hard as I should have. I know I could have done so much better. I have had two of my professors say (one said to my parents and another to someone else in front of my face) that I am one of their favorite students. WHAT? I, at this moment, do not even have a 2.7; although, after this semester, I will have above that. They know I’m not always the most responsible, and that I get overwhelmed sometimes. They have seen my grades. I’m not in the Sociology Honor Society…I’m none of that. I feel embarrassed, a bit, when they say that because I feel like in reality, I’ve let them down. Yeah, I’m nice and they know I appreciate them for doing what they do, but to me, that does not equate to being “one of their favorite students.” That was the point I was trying to make. I think I’ve disappointed them…

I’m hungry.

Early to bed, early to rise.

I don’t know the last time I went to sleep this early!

I cannot stand rudeness and disrespect, no matter who is right or wrong.

I don’t understand why we have to make our insurance companies change their policies in regard to birth control.
Why can’t we look at the real problem: pharmaceutical companies? Why is birth control so expensive to begin with?
Besides, some people pay up to $50…which is similar to cell phone bills, cable, etc…
And why does my mother have to pay a lot of money even with insurance for her rheumatoid arthritis that’s all over her body?
Why does my dad have to pay for all his medication to help control his diabetes (even when he is eating healty such as now)?
Why are life-saving drugs not “free” when life-preventing drugs are?

Please. I wish the Travel Channel was on regular cable…

Today, we were discussing the HHS Mandate, in class. We touched on absitence. This girl said, “And besides, it’s not possible for some people to abstain from sex.”

…..what?

Hypersexual people, but how many people are really, truly hypersexual? Some people are literal addicts to it. But I’m sure the majority is not.

And no, I don’t think it is probable that everyone will abstain from sex. But that right there is a very poor argument!